I’m in the midst of a dating frenzy. I’m talking to/ have so many dates lined up, I don’t even know what to do.
The thing that I’m proudest of? I seem to be getting better at it. Now, granted, it still may be too early to make this determination. But – I know what I’m looking for, and refuse to not get exactly that. Even if it means being alone.
There are benefits to being alone. I can do what I want, when I want, with whom I want. I answer to no one. I can buy/shop/do as I please. There’s no explaining or hiding. It’s just me.
However, I realize the dangers in this. I don’t want to get so accustomed to not compromising that I lose the (admittedly small) ground I gained in learning how to. I know it’s not a strength of mine. And I know, that for a relationship to last, it has to be part of it. For now, though, compromise isn’t necessarily something I have to do.
For instance, today I was supposed to go out with the 26-year old from Sunday. He texted me that he was having dinner with someone and talked about getting together for drinks after. Not acceptable. He made plans with me for tonight. I’m not going to become his drinking buddy after 1 meeting. So, I told him that. It was a bit of a struggle. But – he finally came around to my way of thinking and I have an acceptable 2nd date (meeting) with him on Sunday. If he’d said he didn’t want to talk to me because I was telling him exactly what I expected, then I don’t want/ need to be with him. I’d rather be alone than be with someone that I can’t be honest with. As crazy as it sounds, my “relationship” with TNG at least taught me that. I’m not going to get in to another situation where I’m too afraid to say what I’m looking for just because I love someone’s face.
